Author: Kikyo
Characters: L'Arc ~ en ~ ciel
Status: Complete
Rating: R
Warning: Shounen-ai
Pairing: tetsuxhaido [ l'arc ~ en ~ ciel]
Summary: [...] 's night. Your house is dark. He cries ... the hugs, the hold strong ... would like to remain so for the rest of your life, wishing that the night would never end. At the same time ... would you run away, away from that figure that clings to your chest while you bathe in tears sweater, whispered the name of a cherry tree, which does not hear his voice anymore. Would you like to get away from that person that you love so much, and get the damn cherry, wherever it is, and vent your anger against the whole ... up to overthrow a fury of punches.
But stay, because you know to be her only lifeline [...].
Because of the many things that could happen is your destiny had chosen one? Because of the many people who exist in the world, you had to just fall in love with him? Unanswered questions, vivid, yet evanescent as steam flooding mind you, as an overwhelming flood. I was reading, or listening to words full of meaning, which left indelible traces of the man who wrote them. The emotions that I feel every time on stage began to fill the voice of your notes, and every time rested his lips on the microphone, they were so strong that you could not even imagine could be real. You wondered if he knew to be that miracle, that charmed the audience every time ... that enchanted you, it was really sweet person and child he had known long before, in your Osaka. But not finding the answers, not finding the conclusions to your thoughts, now you had stopped to reason. C 'it was you ... he was there ... and alone was enough to erase all the rest ...
's night. Your house is dark. He cries ... the hugs, the hold strong ... would like to remain so for the rest of your life, wishing the night would never end. At the same time ... would you run away, away from that figure that clings to your chest while you bathe in tears sweater, whispered the name of a cherry tree, which does not hear his voice anymore. Would you like to get away from that person that you love so much, and get the damn thing cherry, wherever it is, and vent your anger against the whole ... up to overthrow a fury of punches.
But stay, because you know to be her only lifeline.
now only trusts you ... wants to be alone with you.
While the hugs, and wiped her cheeks, trying to resist the temptation to tell him it is useless ... that is not coming back ... Sakura now will not come back to him.
You do not have the heart to say, would do too badly. It hurt him is the last thing you want.
"S-sorry ... Tet-chan ... we can stay more ... a bit 'like that? "you ask. The squeeze as hard as you can ... you would not ever allowed to get away from you. "Of course ... I embrace you all the time you want." Reply, kissing his forehead. In your room, lie on your bed, you feel you against your tiny little body, and as her tears stop going out, seems to calm down and fall asleep. And as I look at it, to yourself, humming one of the best songs he has written.
"Gripping my dearest love ... driven by wind and time, I watched ... this is all an illusion? "
A ray of sunlight filtered through the window, I woke up from your sleep shallow. You seem to Essert just fallen asleep, when you open your eyes. You turnarounds between the covers to try next to you, a little body heat.
find his place empty ... feel a nice smell from the kitchen. You get up, go in the direction of good smell, and see Haid, busy preparing breakfast. "Good morning, Haidar ..." you say, by sitting on a chair beside the table. Hands you a cup of coffee and says, "Good morning, Tet-chan" with a faint smile. "I made you breakfast" adds, putting you in front of a plate full of food. "I wanted to thank you for what you do for me. Although, I realize that cooking is very little. "" But I do not even think about it ... do not need you to do something to counter ... "" Yes, but ... you do so much ... "I interrupted, passing on his beautiful face expression grateful. You get up, put your hands on the shoulders and stared into her eyes. "Listen ... I do it because it goes to me. Not because I want something in return, ok? Do not you ever come strange ideas, right? "" Ok ...". Taking the face in his hands, you drop a little on him, and kisses her cheek. "Now sit down and eat, we also have to go to work today." Finally, after so long, Haid appears on the face of a smile. True and sincere. And of course, does not smile because you said you have to go back to work ... rather because they finally feel accepted again. He knows that he'll be there forever ... therefore remains only to make him understand your feelings.
We hope that it will soon pass all the pain you feel.
After eating his breakfast, the singer went to the bathroom for a good morning shower ... expect it in the living room, sitting on the couch with his head resting on the palm of your hand.
Thought you back to the night before ... This has been common for several months, Haidar has cried all her tears, close to your chest.
seems that at night, her pain increases, because, in the dark, feels even more strange that loneliness that comes with it during the day.
Stupidly, did you whispered a soft "I love you" ... but could never hear ... sleeping at last appeased at least some 'of his anxiety, and anyway, even if he was awake, I doubt that would hear your voice, which was little more than a faint whisper. Suddenly, you hear the bathroom door open, and Haid reach into the living room. "I'm ready." I said. Do you see wearing the coat and put your hands in your pocket. "Ok ... So, let's go. "Take the car keys and you go to the study of Ki / oon. It is not very happy to go back to singing, Haidar ... would rather not sing at all ... but somehow, you even get out
from the brink and back again into the sky.
agents of the record company, are planning a tour for your comeback. We must therefore decide everything to do, and besides, you still have to thank Yukihiro.
Haidar is quite friendly with the new drummer, he is as grateful to you, for having helped him during the absence of Sakura ... but at the same time, his expression lies a certain sadness ...
The same expression that shows on the stage of Reincarnation ... not be perceptible only in the eyes of the fans, too busy to get distracted on his voice and his face, to understand what is truly trying. However, your myopic eyes, but perfectly able to perceive even the slightest nuance of the character of Haida, is clearly visible. Continue to
tired of being subjected to all his mood swings, really, but you too well to blame. It is not his fault, nor anyone else ... not yours.
While discussing with the staff of the new single output, see the smoke three times more than usual ... after the meeting there back to your home. During the return trip, Haidar did not say a word. He fell asleep ... your hand strokes his hair to make it wake up the moves slightly. "Haid ... we arrived. "Opens up the eyes, and looks at you.
intensely, looking sweeter and deeper it is capable of. Then there is a tendency towards you and hugs you tight. You do not understand the true meaning of that embrace, but in his eyes, you realize that he must have had a bad dream, in that short amount of time in which he slept. Or, negative thoughts have haunted all the time ...
parts anyway its close. "H-haida ... What is it? "you ask. "I'm tired Tet-chan ..." "We go into the house, on ... 'll make something to eat? Or do you prefer to go to bed? "
" Yes .. I think I'm gonna go get some sleep '. " Once in your apartment, Haidar takes off his shoes, and heads for the bedroom.
Since Sakura is no longer with him, you are asked to stay with you for a while ', so to avoid feeling alone, and that you calm down .... Topics that standing alone in his large apartment that would have suffered even more. Join them in your room. "Come here ..." will tell you, as soon as you see. You sit beside him, leaning against the back of the bed.
"Do not you sleep?" You ask.
"I can not." I replied with a faint whisper.
"We're going back a fever? I hope everything is ok for tomorrow. You know, we have to go to that stupid party who arranged for us. "You say and feel the temperature on the forehead. "No. .. you're cold. "" Do not worry, I'll be fine tomorrow. "he says with a tone a bit 'angry." I know, Haida, the kind of festivals are just a nuisance, even if I could avoid willingly to go ... but it is a good opportunity to show us around again ... "he nods and closes her eyes. You can see a mile away that does not want to go to that party. He does not like to hear all people's eyes constantly fixed on him.
You know it will end like this ... all, he will not watch another ...
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
The restaurant is quite large and brightly lit. There are many people ... some of these, not even know. You did not come together to Haid, but ... he insisted on going to his house before the party, to take some of his clothes. All those present, just waiting his arrival, and when he finally showed up, greeted him with great handshakes and lots of compliments. He goes to the table where you sit with Ken and Yukihiro.
She sits down, and lights a cigarette. It has the blank stare ... you realize that you launch from the first glance. Does not dwell much to look, just looks away. He begins a conversation with Ken, quite quietly, and sometimes smiling at his jokes. However, in her smile there is just something wrong ... all of a sudden gets up and stretches slightly. "I go to the bathroom a second," he says and heads for the door marked Toilette. Your eyes for a moment to meet Ken. Raise your shoulders, and the nod of the "look" ... After ten minutes, still has not returned ... after quarter of an hour, you decide to join to see if there is any problem.
Open the door and find him staring at the front of the mirror image of his face ... probably has washed to clear his head, you know it, because you see little drops glistening running down her cheeks, which were once more soft and plump. You approach and look ... know him for five years now ... has not lost an iota of her beauty. Indeed, looking at him like that, with blacks and soft hair, and eyes that make you mad, you feel better than ever.
A Unlike when mistaken for a girl when she was her beautiful brown hair that curls from the thousand freed gently disarming sensuality, has acquired a sort of virility of its own, without abandoning his being kawaii, as always cry behind his fans. Suddenly he looks at you, turning a serious expression. "What?" I say, displaced. He bowed his head slightly to one side.
"Why did you come here? If you're checking for? "His tone seems a bit 'annoyed. "N-no ... I do not ... "he mumbled nonsense words.
"You're acting as a nurse, Tetsu? Look, you're not my father! "
" Haida, but you say? I was just worried because not come back ... "
" So what? I must also pay attention to how long it takes me to pee now? "Feel almost offended by his words, you turn around and try not to think that this time, Haidar has really misunderstood your intentions. You are about to leave, but the singer is close to you. You put a hand on his shoulder. "Excuse me, Tet-chan ..." I said, leaning his head against your back. "I'm sorry ... I am a little 'angry ... I take it with you that has nothing to do ... "
" Do not worry ... "you say, swallowing the anger and the desire to vent. For the umpteenth time to tell him that you're not giving up any more, all ... and that it is time that the child should stop making a fuss, and then asks forgiveness of the parents!
It forces you to turn around, to be of opposite, pushing lightly with his arm in his direction. I look in your eyes ... expression has changed ... and is so provocative, that seems to dig into it. "Kiss me, Tet-chan ..." you said with a tone of voice equally provocative. It is not a request its ... rather sounds like an order. "Kiss me ..." he says again, bringing her face to yours. Looking at those fabulous lips, which open slightly, revealing his language, you can not resist ... not even wanting to. The kissing, caressing his tongue and mouth, to have to stop to be able to resume breathing.
Watching you, and whispers, "Again, Tetsu ... kiss me again ... "You squeezes the thin arms around his neck, and while continuing to hold her on your lips, slowly, in your head, a thousand thoughts begin to swirl ...
-why this is happening?
-why so suddenly?
-all this makes any sense?
Not that I mind ... you love him, you've always wanted to kiss it, touch it, make it yours ...
but the fact that your dream has been realized so, out of the blue ... was incredible.
It seems not to be true ...
If you disconnect from you, and lets go, smiles. Again that bitter smile, you've learned to recognize as his most sincere expression ... you almost hurts, but you can not help but love him with all of yourself ...
"Let's go out?" I said, taking her hand.
, pressing close to your face. You never feel so hot, her fingers in contact with your cheeks. Close your eyes, leaving you to go to the reassuring warmth of the hand, then position it over a kiss.
When reporting your eyes on her, smiles again ... it seems that there are no words at this moment in which about your looks, and your thoughts, interbreeding with and understand.
're still confused, to say the least stunned by what just happened, but you have imagined to deny it for too long ... wanted too long to dismiss ...
Now, if it were possible, would you want to be your ... your only.
"Let's go out, Tet-chan?" He repeats, looking more deeply into her eyes.
Let go of her hand, her smile and spare parts.
"Go thou first, Haidar ... I arrive in a minute "you say.
"Ok" heads for the exit, and door stops, to launch a last look before turning away, and close behind him ...
You approach the sink and open the tap. Let the cold water will slip between his hands, as earlier you let slip the fingers of Haid ...
You dreamed of a time when you could have kissed the first time that you left enchanted by her eyes and fell in love more each day.
And now that has happened, you know just do not want to quit ... never ever.
Meet your mates out, and you reside at your table.
Haid Note that if you stand to smoke. Meet again your eyes as you take your glass and drink the cocktail that contains it.
you feel wearing the look of Ken staring at you with an expression questioning, but pretend not to notice and look away.
Ken is a humorous person ... loves to laugh, play and make fun of everyone, but it is not stupid. You know you got all of your feelings toward Haidar.
probably noticed it even before you knew it yourself.
You are friends for a lifetime and is perhaps the only person who knows you through.
not show it, but how you look, and looks like Haida, makes you doubt that he also understood that you kissed, in that narrow and dingy bathroom.
as if both there you had written in his face ...
In late evening, returning all your things and leave the club.
you walk to your car, but you stop suddenly, of his call.
"Tetsu! ... Tet-chan, wait! "E 'Haid that runs towards you. "Can I come with you?" I asked. "Of course ... get in the car, on "reply, smiling sweetly.
As you drive, the street lights and signs in public venues and shops, are reflected in your windows, and get lost in the gaze of the Haida, who suddenly turns to you and tells you.
"Tet-chan ... I liked to kiss, you know? "Take your hand off the wheel and placed it on her, hold strong. "Me too ... it is like to me, Haidar. "
Once home, the singer is lying on the couch and waiting for you to join him.
"Haid ... I ask you something? "you ask, sedendogli next.
"Yes?"
"Why were you angry before?" Is watching you hesitate for a second.
"Nothing" he finally says. "It 's that to my house, I found some things that belonged to Sakura, and I have a bit nervous', that's all."
hearing that name again, your stomach twisting and lifting a look eyebrow.
"But it does not matter now ... I want to forget as soon as possible, because now you're here in my life. "he says, taking your hand and holding it close to the cheek. We lay on a light kiss. Just like you did ... repeat your movements, to be understood that they had arrived as your ... "Last night you told me love ... right? "looked into his eyes and he smiles.
"M" but then you were awake, "replied, blushing slightly.
"Yes, I was awake ..."
"Cabbage ... then you could also tell me that I had heard, no? "
hugs you close, then kisses with his lips of fire ... "I did not have the courage, Tet-chan ... I had not realized how true were your feelings ... I was stupid, I know. "
" Tell me ... Tell me again, Tet-chan. " His face closer to your ... can feel your breath on his neck, and your voice to a whisper say the words that many aspects.
"I love you ... I love you to death. "
" Gripping my dearest love ... driven by wind and time, I watched ... this is all an illusion? "
